大家好! 标题说了没错,我是想改一改我自己。我想成为一个脾气比较好的人。这并不代表我会原谅我现在很讨厌的那些人,而是说我从今天以后再也不会随便地发脾.

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People are different. That's for sure. It's very difficult, if not impossible, to find two people who are exactly the same. Despite this fact. I still think i'm like totally different from everyone around me. When i go out with friends or what most of the time i'm smiling and laughing and cracking jokes and doing retarded stuff, in short, i'm just like everyone else. However when i'm alone, i cant help feeling that i'm different from everyone around me. Like i'm a freak. I also dunno why.. I feel like i feel things that other people do not feel and i think differently from other people. Also, i think i have become overly dependent on my friends. Like when i go out i must go out with at least one friend or i won't go out at all. And i cant seem to concentrate on work or study at all when i'm alone. That's a reason why i'm gonna change. Starting from today, i will try my best to be a loner. Not emo. Actually i really respect loners. Cause they are independent and do not need other people to get things done. For me, i cant do that. Or at least i couldnt do that. Starting from now, though, im gonna TRY. And try really hard. It will definitely be hard, and sometimes it will seem unbearably lonely, but if i can hold out, i know i will be stronger, and more like MYSELF. Up till now, i dont really know who i am. Like i have split personality. Mood swings. And these terms only barely describe what i feel. Only when i am truly comfortable being with myself, then i can be myself around other people. So from now, im going to stop hating myself, and start changing myself. I guess this is the only way to find myself again. So from now, no more outings, no more movies with friends, no more skyping till early in the morning. I just know i can do this!!! 李政蔚!加油!!我相信你一定可以做得到!