Could'nt find the right word just now but thought of it just. Sincerity. Someone i knew(or maybe someone from a taiwan drama.. Can't really recall.. :D) once said that if you are not sincere about doing something, then don't bother doing it at all, cause there is no point doing it. I realy agree with this statement. Not sure why..

For example(totally random and no reference to any real life events whatsoever), if you want to buy a birthday present for someone. Call me old fashioned, weird, or retarded, but i think that if you wanna buy a present for someone, you have to pick something that you know the person likes, or needs. You can't just give some random present for the sake of giving it. And most importantly, you have to KNOW what you are buying for the person. You can't just give 10 dollars to someone and ask him to buy a present and then feeling proud that you actually "chipped in" some, when you don't know WHAT you "chipped in" on until the birthday boy/girl finds out.. It beats the whole purpose of giving a birthday present. No sincerity whatsoever. However, i also know that i have been a culprit of this "sincere-less present giving" at times but i've decided to stop. Maybe i'm wrong, but yeah that's how i feel. Told you i think differently from others..

Anyway, on another note (can't decide if its happier or sadder..), i skipped 3 days of school cause pulled my muscle.. bend alry super pain.. But getting better. :) much better. Should be right back on court after mid-years. Actually i think i can go back next week, but my dad wants me to rest one more week.. And this time i think i'll listen.. Later another injury..

Still can't make up my mind wheather i should go for the floorball chalet this december. I'm seriously very afriad of spoiling the mood for everyone. All of you guys are like "Ayio just sit further away from him and dun talk to him can alry." and "just dao him lah" but personally what i feel will happen is this:

1) No doubt, i will dao him. That's like almost 100% confirm. I will like ignore him and like be very cold towards him.

2) Some people will say this to me "Ayio this is a chalet just don't dao him today lah.. Forgive and forget mahh.." and start to think i am acting very childish (and i admit it IS childish, but im sick and tired of forgiving, just to get angry with him all over again in like three days. Sorry)

3) I will start to like get frustrated or what and will like talk back or something.

4) Everyone unhappy and angry and frustrted and emo and whatnot.

Haiss i dunno lah i think i got some forgiving problem. By now u might have noticed that im paragraphing my posts. :) Hopefully easier to read and all..

Rain or sun? Choose..